Just Me, Right Now

I have to fight the urge in writing this blog to only post my most "intelligent," "polished" writing. Well right now I need to post without doing that, just my thoughts. No citations, no scholastic arguments - just what I have been thinking about lately.

God is much bigger than the box I put Him in, much bigger than the box our culture puts Him in. I am learning the richness of other cultures and what they have to offer in their view of God.

Jesus Christ is my one true love. It seems like everything I do is in pursuit of Him; trying to see more of Him, learn more about Him, and know Him better. Sometimes I tire of running after Him, and most of the time I wish He was tangible and visible. I wish I didn't have to think Him so much - I wish He would make His presence so obvious to me that I didn't have to work to notice Him.

"Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all."


People will *always* disappoint me. I cannot put my hope in them. Though I have a complicated relationship with God, and though He has disappointed me, I trust Him, more than I will ever trust anyone else. He is the ultimate good.

I believe that you don't have to be a "Christian" to go to heaven. I think the Great Divorce is the most real portrayal of heaven and hell that I have ever heard or read. I believe that God is bigger than the Christian subculture we have reduced Him to. He is Love, Goodness, and Truth, and though I can't even begin to grasp these things, I have to fight not to put Him in a box.

"I do not know what pagan means. I only know that Jesus of Nazareth sings the true song. He knows the ancient harmonies." - Madeliene L'Engle

Rabindranath Tagore, Madeleine L'Engle, and C.S. Lewis are absolutely brilliant.

"Children's" books and movies express undiluted TRUTH.

"Truth in her dress finds facts too tight.
In fiction she moves with ease." -Rabindranath Tagore

I don't have to figure God out to love Him.

I don't have to figure myself out for Him to love me.